After feeling like I’ve been in a tail spin for the past couple of weeks trying to figure out how to make the new website do what we need it to do, I have crashed.

It’s been insanely impossible to try working on the website while juggling orders. I’m at my wits end. If I ignore emails to concentrate completely on figuring out where to go with the site design then emails and orders get back-logged, bringing in some multiple emails wondering if the others were lost in cyberspace. I get that with emails have gone missing but it doesn’t help with my logjam of work. My stomach has been in knots for the past two weeks over the situation. I’m extremely grateful for all the orders and work but it’s just me in the office and Ed in the shop and there’s only so much the two of us can accomplish in a day.

With Black Sheep Gathering two weeks away we must concentrate on building up stock, recording and organizing the inventory and tending to the myriad of small details that goes into being adequately prepared for a 3 day show.  (Ed has just turned out the bedroom light. Another early night for him – 8:30pm as I write this- these days have been exhausting, and discouraging. )

Tomorrow I’ll try to coax the ancient computer beast back to life long enough to see if I can clear more memory and give it a bit extra life so I can post on the existing website that we won’t be working on orders until the end of June. I truly hope that the extra time will be the ticket to stop the nightmare of a partially functioning website and give Ed the focus he needs to be ready for BSG.

It’s scary to “take off” this time (we’ll still be working, though we hope not the endlessly long hours) since Jenkins Woodworking – spindles, hooks, needles, hairpin looms – provides our entire income. On the other hand Ed can’t afford to have a shop accident and I don’t want to lose my sanity.

Compounding things was having a venous ablation done on one of my legs to take care of the insufficient saphenous vein on the 22nd. (I’d like to post about this at length in the future.) From what I’d read it sounded like it wasn’t a big deal. For the most part it hasn’t been, it’s just one more thing to deal with during any already stressful time. The first two days I alternated between resting with my leg elevated above my heart and an ice pack on it for about 30 minutes and working in the office  for 20 – 30 more minutes, but it’s been very hard to take the time away to elevate my leg and ice it.

Wore the tight wrappings for 48 hours. I was amazed at how much it swelled even with the bandaging, tape and compression sock. (This will be the only picture of this.)

The 25th had previously been booked for filming of the spinning video. Jesse and his film partner, Shannon, had only that one day available to come down here from Portland. It was a very intense day that flew by way too quickly as we tried to cover everything in one session. I was so impressed with their professionalism and knowledge. Figuring out lighting and placement, working through the sections was a blast. We worked solidly with only a 15 minute break to eat some cheese and crackers for lunch. Then again as we neared the ending when the camera’s hard drive reached max capacity and we had to stop to transfer recordings to Jesse’s laptop. Bad timing, I’d been on a roll but with the interruption my train of thought evaporated; tiredness set in; I was concerned about my leg (no chance to rest or ice it at all). After that it was hard to pick up the pieces and get back in the groove.

Jesse setting up camera gear:
Shannon in charge of the sound system and lighting:

We began with the outdoor scene after this we moved into the house where I was too absorbed to think about getting anymore picture.
What a fun experience to work with Jesse and Shannon!


I thought my leg was doing extremely well since there was minimal pain. Apparently, so much lidocaine was injected all along the blood vessel that it took over a week for the numbness to wear off and the pain to really hit.  The following Tuesday, the 29th, I was absentmindedly carrying a 7 gallon container of water down some steps when I felt a burning in my leg and realized how stupid it was to carry that much weight (56lbs) so soon. It’s been burning ever since, always worse after sitting for more than 15 minutes.  Talked to a nurse about it a couple days ago and was reassured that it’s normal and that it could take a couple more weeks before the pain completely goes away.

Life feels very crazy right now. Remember the Girls’ Getaway I mentioned in the previous post?  It feels completely insane to be taking four days away from the office. My stomach somersaults just thinking about load of work that will greet me when I return. But, as I’d mentioned, it will be good to get away for a short time. Stressing about all the work won’t do me any good so I may as well enjoy the good change of pace and come back renewed in mind and spirit.

Some days trying to focus on the good is so hard!


Author: Wanda J

I never dreamed my life would be entangled with fiber and the tools used to produce fibery items. When I bought a boat shuttle used in weaving Ed looked at it, decided to make a better one and the rest is history. For a decade he made shuttles, crochet hooks, knitting needles, until his spindles became so popular that he had to devote his time to making them, as well as Walking Wheels. Free time is spent reading, trying to coax food from the ground, and playing in the creek near our place. I love long walks and camping far from crowds. Playing a fiddle beside a stream or with good friends brings sweetness to my soul. Sundays are set aside for worshiping God with our small Quaker meeting.

8 thoughts on “Tailspin”

  1. I’ve tried twice to do a post about the agitation I was feeling today, and finally gave up. Then I read your post and get the sense you are feeling the same agitation — too much to do, and the pressure to do it. I hope your weekend away helps. I felt better after stubbornly plugging away and getting a few things crossed off my list.

  2. I absolutely know how you are feeling, apart from your poor swollen knee…I have a massive cold sore and am feeling wretched but have loads to do in preparation for a big 2 day show. Taking time out will recharge your batteries, or so everyone keeps telling me! Hope you don’t get too burned out with all that’s going on. I keep wishing time away, reaching towards the next date on the calendar in the hope that i can have some ‘me’ time, but for some reason, there is always another date to move towards!

  3. I am certainly sorry about your schedule and your pain!
    My husband is his own sole employee at this point, so he is doing the manufacturing and the office work. He seems a bit shorter these days with all the pressure! Hang in there. Enjoy your weekend away and think of it as a battery charge.
    Indeed, it is a gift to be simple!

  4. Oof! I’m sorry to read that you have to deal with so much at the moment…
    Enjoy your getaway. May it be as refreshing and rejuvenating as you need it to be!

  5. I know you probably don’t have a lot of money, but I would gently suggest that you hire an experienced web professional to manage your site at some point in the future, or at least give you advice on how to better manage it so you don’t get too stressed out and have it work exactly the way you need it to do so.

  6. I’m so sorry to hear things have gotten so crazy for you! Hopefully this month will give you the time you need to regroup! I don’t know how open you are to working with a site like BigCartel for awhile, but I’ve found it pretty easy to manage and would be happy to chat about it if you’re interested.

  7. How well I know this feeling!! (As you might be able to tell by the way I haven’t been commenting lately, and by my tremendous belatedness in replying to your email – it’s not because I haven’t been thinking of you!) You have a lot on your plate right now, and surgery of any kind is hard on the body – it takes its toll, even when you’re healing so beautifully. Take care of yourself, and be kind to yourself – people will definitely understand (we’ve all been there!).

  8. it sounds like you need an office assistant! if i lived any closer, i’d volunteer. technology and real life can get so overwhelming when one pushes too much against the other. i’m glad to hear your excursion has helped the wave of agitation; healing also takes a lot of your bodies energy. feel better soon, and take deep breathes, have some tea, and chip away with small bites rather than looking at the entire amount.

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